Character Defects

Character Defects: Observations While Wearing a New Pair of Glasses

Let’s play a game!: Just TRY ON my glasses and tell me what you see … just for a couple of minutes.

In order to play this game, you MUST FIRST take off your own glasses.

You have to set aside EVERYTHING (you THINK) you know about Yourself, Your Life, Me, God (as you understand her) and the Nature of Reality (as you understand it in this moment). CAN YOU DO THAT?

If you can, then may you open yourself up to having a new experience … to see things in a different light. At the end, you are more than welcome to discard my glasses, and see things in any way you choose. Agreed?

I’m not trying to convince you of ANYTHING. My intention is to share my experience with you, and to offer you a fresh perspective that may benefit you.

Okay. Now, just take a deep breath … and let everything go.

Remember: This is NOT The Truth … (keep that in mind)

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Let's assume that “Time” is made-up … an Illusion. The concept of “Change” can ONLY EXIST in the illusion of “Time” … a thing used to be one way, and has now changed into something else.

So, in this game, there is no Time. Therefore, there is NO CHANGE. It exists ONLY in a made-up “Story” with a Beginning, an End and the myth of “Cause and Effect” in between.

This means that there is NO “Past” and NO “Future,” either. Those are just thoughts I'm creating in this moment of NOW.

Try to change something and you simply create a different version of it. Changing something actually creates more of the same. What we resist, persists. It’s only when we bring “No Change” to something that it actually disappears (Landmark Education).

Outside of this awareness, in my automatic version of Reality, “I AM,” “YOU ARE” and “IT IS” a certain way. But, this is simply more Illusion. These are just sequences of “Thoughts” about experiences that I had in my “Past” (which, as you know, does not exist).

My Ego is also just a thought, as well. It is the Main Character in my made-up Story. And, since the Story isn’t Reality, then everything in it (including the Main Character and all the supporting roles) DOES NOT EXIST!

So, imagine this World: NO Time (Past, Present, Future, Beginning or End); NO Story (Plot, Characters, Drama, Change, Cause and Effect, etc.). Outside of this story, all there really is, is THIS frozen snapshot of NOW. And, even THAT is open to interpretation!

Currently in this fairytale, God has yet to remove certain “Character Defects” from the main character that I call Bill. REALLY? Why? … cuz I was late yesterday (again)? … cuz I procrastinated last week (again)? … cuz I didn’t meet my expectations of myself (again)?

[Notice your own thoughts about your story].

So, from those previous chapters in the book, I say that “I AM” still defective. REALLY? IS THAT REALLY TRUE RIGHT NOW?

Is that really true IN THIS MOMENT OF NOW? In THIS moment … the only place that God can be found … there is NO story, no past/present/future, etc.

So, yesterday’s behavior that I link to a character defect is NOT REAL. The behavior and the defect don't even exist RIGHT NOW. Therefore, I am aware of my false logic that leads me to the false conclusion of “Who I AM,” and “How It IS.” In this story, the Character Defects remain, as if they are physical things inside my head that need to be surgically removed!

If there REALLY IS an I AM that is REALLY true, I say that “I AM THE ALL-SINGING, ALL DANCING CRAP OF THE UNIVERSE” (Tyler Durden). I am “the same energy that moves the stars and the planets” (Wayne Dyer). And, those are just thoughts, too … not The Truth.

Then, immediately another thought comes … a judgment or analysis of a recent (past) event, or a possible (future) event or action that I might take. Suddenly, I am aware that I have left God in this moment, and I am back to writing my novel. I am blindly submerged in the drama of Bill's Life.

I think it is my Autobiography, but it's 100% fiction.

My main character is this poor soul who is often the innocent, blameless Victim of some evil. More often, he is involved in some “struggle” … some “problem” to deal with. Then, he becomes the heroic underdog who has stepped-up to slay the fire-breathing dragons of the world.

He has returned to the fantasy he calls “Real Life” … returned to what he thinks is The Real Reality (as opposed to dreaming state when he’s sleeping). He is solving some puzzle, or strategizing to overcome some (non-real) adversity.

A “Problem” is defined as something (that I say) “should not be” … any person (including me) or situation (in the past) that definitely SHOULD NOT BE THAT WAY! (Landmark Education).

“I should be more _______.” “She should not _______.” “He has no right to say that.” “I should be making more money.” “They shouldn't act like that in public.” “They should believe as I do.” “That is unforgivable.” “It's not fair.” “I don't deserve this kind of treatment.” “He's an asshole.” and on, and on … you get the idea.

[Notice what you are you labeling as a “problem” in your life?].

First of all, since it already happened in the “past” … since I cannot “change” what already happened, then I know that IT SHOULD HAVE HAPPENED exactly as it did? Why? BECAUSE ITDID HAPPEN! That’s how I know that it SHOULD HAVE … CUZ IT DID! (Acceptance + Surrender = Peace of Mind).

If I COULD go back and change it, then it COULD HAVE happened another way. But, I can’t. And therefore it couldn’t. So, why am I wrestling and battling this illusionary fight that can never be won? The struggle only exists in my mind.

“When I argue with Reality, I lose 100% of the time”  (Byron Katie). I am arguing with God. I am saying that I know better than God (Alcoholics Anonymous).

When I see my made-up struggle, in the context of this other Reality, I see that I really have no problems … they do not exist for me. Everything (including Me) SHOULD BE exactly as IT IS, and exactly as IT IS NOT.

Secondly, the story also disappears … the characters vanish … and I return back to NOW.

In this light, I can choose to see past events as Negative, Positive, or Neutral (neither positive or negative). Or, I could even choose to view it as an invaluable lesson … a blessing … a cherished gift from The Almighty God Herself!

Where is The Gold in this? (Mankind Project) … What can I learn? … How can I benefit from it? … How can I use this in the future? … How is God molding me with this? … How can I use this personal experience help others?

What used to be “the worst things that ever happened to me” have transformed into my greatest assets (Alcoholics Anonymous). No one can ever take those from me. Today, they are my most prized possessions. God gave me those gifts for me to share with others.

Therefore, I don’t know what’s “good” for me … or, for you. Since I was wrong in the past, what I think is good for me today could very well be “bad” for me (and visa versa). In fact, “Good” and “Bad” are simply more judgments (thoughts) that I make-up as I go along.

Nothing in itself is inherently good or bad. In fact, there is no “Good and Bad.”

“Knowing” this, I choose to assign the Ultimate Meaning of Everything as being GOOD.

Returning to my concept of my Character Defects … these are my made-up BAD things that I say “I AM,” or “I HAVE” … that God has YET to remove. I label them as Negative Attributes (Problems) that remain with me in this progression of time.

Would God REALLY give me anything BAD in this moment? Has She ever been BAD to me? Wait! There is no BAD!

I can now honestly say that in this “REAL” moment of NOW, that those things DO NOT EXIST … LITERALLY , NON-EXISTENT.

So, in this VERY MOMENT OF NOW, GOD HAS REMOVED ALL OF MY CHARACTER DEFECTS!

  

Call it whatever you want … I am Saved …  Reborn … God-Conscious … Recovered … Restored to Sanity … entered the state of the Buddha … all of the promises have come true for me 100%.

The struggle is over. It never really was.

I am home at last. I live in Peace. There’s nothing to do, and nowhere to go.

I AM.  IT IS.

(and, those are just thoughts, too … Not The Truth)

And, here comes the next thought … I’ve gotta go, cuz I’ve got some more story to write.

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(Thank you for reading this far! Please feel free to comment liberally … I'm interested in your thoughts and hearing of any books or resources you have found that are aligned with these concepts. You are welcome to forward this to anyone who might be interested.)

One-Page Daily Review Prompter

DAILY TRANSFORMATION

~  In what area am I lacking Freedom, Power or Full Self-Expression?  I know an  inauthenticity exists, but have yet to distinguish it.  This is where I'll be looking today, to cause my next Breakthrough.

~  In what area (where I lack F, P or FSE) have I ALREADY done the work of distinguishing, and have ALREADY seen openings for action, but have yet to take that action?  Declare by when you will take that action?

 ~  In what area can I see that my past is in my future?  What can I let go of? 

  ~  Declare what I am Pretending and Hiding, and the Impact and Cost on others and myself?  (This is the time to simply declare what you have already distinguished, not the time to "do the work.") What secret about myself have I been keeping? What needs to be confessed?

~  Where am I avoiding Responsibility (not being cause in the matter) by running Rackets, costing my Aliveness? (Payoffs? Costs?) What am I being right about?  Who or what am I making wrong?  Where am I playing the victim or martyr? Where am I trying to Look Good or avoid looking bad? What am I in fear about? Where am I playing small?

  ~  What worked yesterday?  What didn't work?   Where is Integrity lacking? What can I do to restore my foundation of Integrity? (Acknowledge, Deal w/Impact, what Structures?)

  ~  If Upset was present, what were my Unmet Expectations, my Undelivered Communications, AND my Thwarted Intentions? I am cause in the matter of my life.

  ~  Is or was there a Breakdown?  What actions can I take to deal it?  In what area will I cause my next breakdown?

  ~  What is incomplete from yesterday?  What is missing, the presence of which would make a difference?  And declare what actions you will take today to clean up yesterday's mess.

  ~  Yesterday, I chose to be IT when I  _______ .  Today, I will notice IT and instead choose ____. 

  ~  Right now, IT is saying __________ .   I say _________ .

  ~  (Today’s version of) The ACT that I am giving up is _________ . 

  ~  What am I letting go of from yesterday? Declare it.

~ What difference did I make yesterday (for others and self)? How will I impact life today?

  ~  It would be literally be a blessed miracle in my life if __________ .  I choose to create this cuz I can have anything I want.  I wave my magic wand to create my dream Utopia day from Heaven.

  ~  What am I creating today, my possibility?  Declare it.  And, what openings for action now call me powerfully into action? (that will transform my experience of life)

  ~  What will I Listen From, Listen With, and Listen For?  Where am I standing?

  ~  What is the overall game of my life?  What is my purpose?  What am I here for?

Ray Charles is GOD!

If God is Love, And Love is Blind, And Ray Charles is Blind, THEN RAY CHARLES IS GOD!

LOVE - TRUTH - ILLUSION – REALITY

(This is only my take on things, from this very human perspective ... I am NO expert or authority.  I'm not saying that what I type is The Truth -- I am VERY FAR from being qualified to claim to even get close to it.  Actually, I cannot even claim this to be "my take on things."  I got most of this from other people, books, personal experiences, etc.  I didn't come up with all this on my own)  

I know some "Christians" who think I'm cracked.  But, I also know others with whom we can speak the same language  ... once we get past petty words, semantics, definitions ... and talk about Real Experience of God.  

For me,  God is Everything and Everything is Love.  God = Love = Everything = You = Me = Jesus = Satan.  A lot of people squirm when I say things like, "I am God.  And, you are too."  They don't get that there's a difference between "Being God" and "Playing God."  I am an Agent of God.  That sounds arrogant.  But, if I'm not an agent of God, then I'm an agent of my Self, my Ego, and that is even MORE arrogant.  

I prolly cannot claim to be a Christian (in the usual sense of the word).  Mostly, cuz I believe that we're all already saved (but, I could be wrong), that Heaven and Hell are places we can go to RIGHT NOW (I've spent time at both in this lifetime), and that since God is Everything, then Not-God (or Satan/Hell) cannot really exist (although, sometimes I create the illusion that they are real).  

By my logic, what some people call "Christ," I call "Love."  I guess that makes me a "Loveian."  It's just semantics -- mere words.  Different symbols pointing to the same Experience.   It's in all of us, no matter what you call it, or recognize it.  It is the energy that flows thru all things.    

It matters nil whether you believe in God or not.  She believes in you.  He made you this way for a reason, so just go with it.  On the other hand, if you struggle with "what's the truth," then just know that God is Love.  If you can't believe in Love, then you're either a psychopath or just hurt and bitter (we've all been there ... this too shall pass).  And even if you're bitter, try acting lovingly to someone.  Pretty soon, you'll begin to love them.  Then, you'll understand all you need to know about God.

Everything about this existence is mostly an illusion ... what my mind and five senses tells me.  The illusion that you are separate from me, is just an idea created by my Ego, which is just who I think I am when I ponder things in the absence of LOVE.  

I used to think we were all different, but now I know we're all the same.  Not just identical separate beings, but actually THE SAME.  At my deepest level, there is Universal Mind, which is You TOO!  We are literally one ... it's not just a song lyric or a New Age Warm-n-Fuzzy.  

IT IS REAL.  GOD IS LOVE.  LOVE IS ALL THERE IS.  GOD IS IN ME.  I AM IN GOD.  I AM YOU.  YOU ARE GOD.   If you're like me, this sounds rediculous when I read it with my Ego.  Ego cannot fathom this, as it threatens It's very existence.  So, check again.  Can you read it from your REAL SELF?  Many cannot, so I don't blame you if you hit your back button now. 

But, I could be ENTIRELY wrong about ALL of this (God knows I've been wrong before).  

Please know that I respect any spiritual beliefs that you may have.  I am not interested in debating or arguing one point over another.  However, I would cherish you sharing any of your own personal experience with God, rather than anything I could read in a book, or hear in church (I prolly already dun that).  

All I ask, is that if, as you type to me, you suddenly realize your motive as wanting to tell an opposing view as mine (cuz you feel it your duty), then please refrain.  Instead, share with me how you've loved the world and how you love God's children.  That's what I wanna hear!!    

Truth is, we're both right.  And, neither is wrong.  My spirituality has evolved and transformed over time.  I started as Proud Athiest.  

Nothing is really wrong in God's world anyway.  At any given time in any moment in life, THERE IS NOTHING WRONG.  YOU ARE COMPLETE AND WHOLE JUST AS YOU ARE.  THERE IS ABSOLUTELY NOTHING YOU CAN DO IN THIS WORLD THAT COULD CHANGE HOW MUCH GOD LOVES YOU.  YOU ARE ALREADY FORGIVEN, SO FORGIVE YOURSELF.  (but hey, I'm only human, it's just my opinion, i could be wrong)